I am the 'they' in "That's what they say."

skamaster09 @ 2004-02-14T14:35:00

2004-02-14T19:36:27Z

Three years (and one day) to the day and 600 posts later, I am here to say goodbye.
I don't know what you were all expecting this would be.
I have had a lot of ideas and this....wasn't one of them.

I can't say that I have thought "Oh man, now I don't want to go."

But if you all had commented as much as you say you wanted to, I don't know if I would have even thought to leave.

Really, the reason I choose to go is that I can't stand what you people type about. You're insane.

I can't give examples without hurting feelings, but just...think before you type.

Also, more importantly, I want a new handle. Skamaster09 isn't my style.

Just some things I need to get off my scrawny chest. Like confession.

When I say "wonderful", I'm sarcastic. I never mean it.

I don't promise things. Even things like "I'd give you the stars and moon" (who says that?).

Everyone knows it's impossible, I can't do it, so I don't promise it.

Even things I plan on doing and know I can do, I don't promise them, because what if something prevented me from doing it?

I wouldn't like living with that kind of guilt.

I've never cheated on any of my girlfriends. No matter what you may think or hear.

Never contemplated suicide. Although, I honestly believe I would be better off to the world dead.

I don't necessarily think I'm a bad person, but I don't think I am a good one.

I am a jealous, boring, apathetic, egotistical, big headed Jap.

Too often do I live in the past and most of the time, it's not even my own.

If I'm mean to you, that just means I like you. If I didn't like you I just wouldn't acknowledge you.

My girlfriend is sitting on my lap right now. She's cute....and fuzzy.

This post is day late because I would rather spend my time with her.

Don't give advice for situations you haven't been in.

Watch The Godfather, Citizen Kane and Scarface.

Also Seven, Amelie, Red Hot American Summer and every Lord of the Rings.

Do unto others. Respect the elders. Listen to Ska.

Take time to look up and find your place.

Stop reading journals and get outside. Take pictures even.

If not, don't post more than twice a day and don't do that more than once a week.

Don't post quizzes, lyrics and cryptic bullshit only you know.

Post when you have time to say something. Don't say something when you have time to post.

You're just proving the fact that if everybody spoke their mind they wouldn't speak so much.

Every word, image, move and brush stroke is another chance to express yourself.

Read more. Bathe at least every other day. Go camping.

Think with your own brain. Nothing is more beautiful than someone thinking originally.

If you're going to drink don't drive or have a phone with you. You will lose friends.

The trick to taking beautiful pictures is taking pictures of beautiful things.

Please, be faithful to one another.

Guys, find a girl that makes it easy for you to be nice to them and treat them perfect.

Girls, I'm begging you here, please don't sell yourself short. Don't let the nice guys finish last.

And if your boy hurts you, call me.

So I guess that is all I have to say.
Most of you have been so nice.
I greatly appreciate being appreciated.
You are all so beautiful.
Goodbye.

Life is just a bunch of inside jokes and 'you had to be there' moments.
Euphemisms and velleities, negative and positive connotations, heartbeats and heartbreaks.
All strung together with ties and bonds with people we love and hate.

And That, my friends, is my swan song. Over and out.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-02-12T11:54:00

2004-02-12T16:55:18Z

They say that a picture is worth a thousand words.
Those words tell a story. Not just of what the picture is or means,
but of what happen right before and after it was taken and why it was important to show the world.

People

This is the first picture I ever took and posted. Accompanied by the caption "Summer. I long, I pine."
Due to a lack of a tripod I had my camera on a stack of empty cardboard boxes.
It got positive reviews and I was grateful, but come on...what kind of view is that?

Jeff and I were at Movin' On in State College, a free concert usually with good bands.
I took him because The Get Up Kids were playing. He likes them so much that he dressed up like them.
No one has really figured out what that mascot really is. I've narrowed it down to three things:
1. A Fruit Push-up
2. A taco or Wrapp.
3. A penis mascot warning kids that if they don't wear protection they risk vegetation.

Taken the same day. I have always wished I could go back and take this picture again.
I should have just taken my time and gotten closer. Instead of just doing a walk by.

Laura and I were at the Penn State/Altoona Campus for an Art Show/Festival.
It's the kind of things I really enjoy. Lots of people, things to do and look at and carnival food.

K.K.Keller took me along with him to Wildwood, NJ. It was one of the greatest times I've had.
Obviously, this was Vinny. He and his many fellow biker friends were on the main strip getting drunk.
After losing two other signs to the authorities, Vinny got the bright idea to tape two to himself.
He would stand on the double yellow line and spin till he got what he wanted.
At one point he stopped the local sherif and exclaimed,
"You ain't gettin' this coppa. This here's duct tape."

One morning after another sleepless night, I decided I wanted to see the sunrise.
The local baseball field is a personal favorite place to take pictures,
but honestly, I don't know why, there is nothing photogenic about it.

Andy, Tim, Ian and I went to Watkins Glen, NY. It was very nice and pretty empty.
Turns out we chose to go when they were working on it, so it was blocked off.
Luckily, this lady met us and told us that we could walk around and come in the back,
as long as we didn't tell anyone we talked to her. So we did.

This is my favorite picture of me. Taken in the Denny's crane machine.

My dad praying at the family reunion. Sometimes I wonder what it is he prays for.
Strength? Respect? Understanding? I wonder if he prays for the same things as me?
Maybe he just gives thanks, like every man should.

Andy "Yeah it's free" Cosnotti, Emily, Ali McNally and I went to the "free" Casualties*Mohawk*/Bouncing Souls show.
Although I didn't get to see the Bouncing Souls I must admit, the Casualties*Mohawk* kept me pretty entertained.

Strawberry Mall(Forever) in Harrisburg, PA. I like the picture as is,
but this was actually one of the first picture I took of someone I didn't know.
That was a huge step for me.

I see people like this and wonder. Where has she been? What was the last thing she said?
Where was her first kiss? Why is her favorite shirt her favorite shirt? Is she a great grandmother?
Does she go home to an empty house and cook for one? What was the funniest things she ever heard?
People are so beautiful. So beautiful. I call this "Lady Wonder".

I remember taking this picture at six in the morning. I think I have a sleeping problem. (It's 2:36am right now.)
This picture just reminds me of not sleeping. Who can sleep when there is so much to think about?

Places

Day Two of our Raystown trips. Horribly Photoshoped.
I really like when the sun shines through the clouds.
Makes me think the sky is pointing out something special.

Stoney Man in Virginia. Probably the most beautiful place I've been to.
It's a place I could go to day after day and think about nothing and everything.
It's true when they say you can be 'at peace' in nature. Life changing.

Blackwater Falls was the first waterfall I had seen. So it was something special for me.
Andy and I slid down on three feet of snow that was on a closed stairway to the falls.
I also say windmills for the first time that day. We ate at Smileys.

Andy and Tim at Ash Cave in Hocking Hills, OH. Our first over night camping trip together.
You really had to be there. Not just Ash Cave, but the whole trip. It was beautiful.
Just driving to the campsite is something I will remember forever.

This picture makes me think of the perfect day at the perfect time to be fishing with your friends.
The kind of day when you don't have to talk. The kind of time that the sun is going to set soon and that's ok.
The kind of day that not catching fish is fine, because you get to enjoy a worry free life just a while longer.

I wonder what he said right before he pointed. What is so important that he couldn't wait to tell?

We took our girlfriends to Niagara. Are we sweet or what?
Just a good picture of three of my favorite people.

I remember the fish at the bottom of the falls. I remember walking though the water for a picture.
I remember walking upstream in the water just because we wanted to do it differently.
I remember the snakes, the license plate in the parking lot and the "Stay this Side of Wall" we didn't listen to.

Compare yourself to a tree. Compare the tree to the Grand Canyon. Compare the Grand Canyon to Arizona.
Compare Arizona to the US. Compare the US to the world. Compare the world to the solar system and then space.
We are so insignificant. Yet someone cares about you and wants to know you. I think that's great.
This picture made me think of that.

Tim hates it when you write on his Jeep. So Andy wrote on his Jeep and leaned back.
Being none the wiser, Tim gives two thumbs up to homosexuality.
This was probably one of the funniest things we ever did.

This was probably one of the coolest things we ever did.

I failed to mention. Not only did I see my first waterfall and windmills,
I also saw the so called "Smallest Church in 48 States".
Here is some trivia for you. The record for the smallest church was dismissed,
because so many people claimed to have had it and it's hard to say who was right.

Tim, at Blackwater Falls, starts what was to become a great climbing career...

Appalachian Man at his finest.

It is rare for us to mind signs. We don't travel hours upon hours and spend our money
just to have some sign tell us we can't do what we want. This is a great example.

Day One of our Raystown trips. This is one of the few pictures from that day.
This was another great, great day. I can't really explain it, but it was something beautiful.
We could have walked across the entire lake. We instead had a picnic on the lake, as real men do.

This is a shelter atop the highest point in Shenandoah National Park.
There is an endangered species of birds to the left and an outlook to the right.
Not much to climb over, but the view is beautiful.

Andy, Jim, Timbo and Timmy silhouetted against one of the most beautiful sunset I've seen.
A silhouette is not only a beautiful thing, it's a very beautiful word.

This graveyard was above Watkins Glen in NY. I really like the idea,
but I could have done a lot better of a job at it.

Ohio was the shit.

Things

A hand drier in a bathroom in PA somewhere.
I know, I know. I'm being obvious,
but here is something you probably don't know.
The space in the brain between the Dendrite and Axon which the
Neurotransmitters fire across is called the Synapse.

Probably my favorite picture I've taken. I didn't crop it or mess with it or anything.
I didn't even use a tripod. It's the picture I'm the most proud of.

In a local store in Martinsburg. Just thought it looked nice for not knowing what I was doing.

The room is stayed in with Ryan in Wildwood, NJ. I liked it, Jones liked it, you should like it.

Also at the bowling alley. I take a lot of reflection shots.
I don't think I would change this picture. I like it blurry.

One of the first times we hung out, Andy, Justin, Ian and I went to see Brand New.
It was a great, great show and the ride home was very fun.
This picture isn't from that night. It is a homage to it.

Coming home from Lake Arthur the sky seemed to be following us

I called this "Skys End" from my rainy day post. I took a lot of good pictures that day.
This one was just my favorite. Probably because it's a reflection.

A sign in the graveyard above Watkins Glen. I thought it was really, really funny.

Friends

Dutch is fucking harsh. He shares my enthusiasm for Photography.
So every once and a while we'll go on picture taking frenzies.
This night was one of those frenzies. Remember him in a drier? Yeah, that was this night.

When it snows all of Lock Haven goes out and plays in it.
This was the second time we went out and we did it strictly to smear Josh.
So Mike got ready and I got this moment. One of my very favorites.

Tim preparing his world famous chicken. A camping tradition.
"Bad chicken" never tasted so good.

This was just last Thursday (5th) at Kane's house I believe.
I bet if I hadn't taken this picture he would have never remembered putting it on.
Afterward we all had a fun walk back to Dutch's and played find Dutch's phone...in the snow.

The usual group from McEntire 7th floor front.
Me, Justin, Mike, Steve, Josh and Andy.
We've dedicated most of our past week to Super Mario World, Super Nintendo style.
I'm actually having more fun this semester. Wow. Scrazy.

Jeff at his dad's house, where many of good night have been had.
Nobody does the Fourth of July like the Wendels. Nobody.
I have a new song you need to hear. You'll like it.

Josh and Pedro. One of three turtles I've caught fishing. This one was rescued from the Amish.
I've had a major jones for fishing lately. I can't for it to warm up.
I could probably type forever about fishing. Basicly, I wish I were fishing now.

Wes King co-owns a clothing company. I suggest you check them out.
This picture reminds me of high school and home room. Being a senior rules.
I think that is Matt Lewis' hand.

Mike was the first friend I made at college and almost every one else I met, I met through him.
I just like the moment in this picture.

Trevor and Whiney whom I've known for as long as I can remember. They had a toga party, this was post-party.
It's funny how alike they are and how different they are. I really enjoy hanging out with them and watching stupid movies.

The kid at the bottom had the idea of rolling this ball onto the street, but it was just too far.
So, instead, we rolled it to the top of a set of stairs so nobody could use them.
This made my feel a part of something important.

Wayne and I went to State College strictly to take pictures. He is one of the very coolest people I know.
I will actually be seeing him the 21st, if everything goes as planned. It's going to rock.
Something you didn't know, that is actually a film picture that I scanned. I was proud.

Girlfriends

Nicole was my first real girlfriend. My previous ones were wooden which made for splinters.
We went out for four veeerrryy loooooonngg years. I learned a lot, as I do with all of my girlfriends.
I hate to point this out, but we have the same teeth. And my haircut was somewhat of a retarded backwards mullet.

I have no idea who took this picture or where it was, but I like it.

After a weekend get away..for God...in State College, Emily and I starting going out.
Remember when you almost got hit by that car? That was fucking hilarious.
Sadly, it didn't last too long and that's because of me. Sorry.
She is one of my best friends and one of the coolest, smartest and sweetest girls I know.
I know you can barely see in the picture, but she is making a great face. I like that.

I know you hate this and I'm telling you now, I don't want to hear about it.
I put this picture in here for two reasons. I wanted to use pictures I took
and I really, really, really liked your hair long. It was so great.
Not that you're hair isn't awesome now, but I think I'm going to tell you that for the rest of my life. Deal.

You can't ignore the past forever. I liked her, but it was a fake her.
We had a quick falling out. Not quick enough it would seem.
There were good times and I learned a lot. She still holds a place in my life.
The other girl is Ashliegh.

Right about here I went out with Amy Pipetti. I'm not ignoring her, I don't have a picture. But she was tiny.

One thing you have to do in a relationship is weigh the good against the bad.
Once the good is outweighed, it's time to move on.
I had a lot of fun with Emma, but when we were apart I was miserable.
Don't make the mistake of thinking that is sweet. You should be every bit as happy together and apart.
I was constantly on the line of happy and depressed. She just made up my mind for me and left. For the best.
I will always remember what you said that day and the reason you gave me.
Grace could not save a jealous, boring soul.

After a six month depression, the light at the end of a long tunnel was Laura.
She had positive outlooks. Hopes and dreams. The kind of girl that likes to be out in the world.

We were just better off friends. Even though we haven't hung out since. I miss her dad.

She is with Jeff now and they are in love and will be together 'forever and a weekend'.
Hopefully this will not warrant me a desk to the face.

Manda

This is our first picture together. I think it will remain my favorite just because of that.
Even though it is a little fuzzy, but what's wrong with been a little fuzzy?

I can't quite explain it, but this is what I said to my mom.
My friends back home, I don't see. My friends at college, they don't know me.
My family, I don't talk to. And anybody else, I'm too shy to meet.
Amanda is the remedy. She brings things together and makes sense of them.
She is a perfect mix of my past, my present and my future.

She is sexy.

She is funny.

She is so, so beautiful.

And, of course, she is the cutest little thing ever.

You're the best part of life. You're beautiful, smart and funny. And you are missed when you are away.
Every song reminds me of you and how great things are together.
The things that are important to you are important to me.
Whether it's playing video games, Niagara Falls or a car crash,
I love any experience that brings us closer.
I could speak forever and not say anything deserving of your ears, so...
I love you. I love you. I love you.

Creative

My brother Sal and his high socks. It's kind of easy to balance when you can't fall either way.
The picture was actually portrait style, but it's stronger this way.

I had always wanted to make a mosaic...so I did. I added the boxes and lines to make it less boring...less like me.

The words are my favorite from any Shakespeare writings. Even though I haven't read that many.
The rest of the picture was just boredom and time, but I like it.

Like most of my Photoshop creations, this just grew from one thing to another.
It was originally supposed to be just me against a white wall and spray painted words saying something emo.
I'm glad you all liked this so much.

Whenever I feel like telling my girl how I feel, I do. You should too. Just let them know, I bet it's great to hear.

This might have been the funniest idea I ever had. The peak of my creativity.
I've always really enjoyed when you can see a historical figure, highly esteemed figure or just a bad guy in a movie,
with a sense of humor. Like the picture of Einstein with his tongue out. Classic cool.

I reach new levels of emo with this and I got made fun of for it, big time.
I think I said something like:
"I've done the math and it's a fact...there isn't a girl for me in all the world".
I could have done the background so much better. "Manda" is so easy to see.
To the far right, the addition problem, yeah that's supposed to be my phone number...
but it's not, because I'm a retard. I should have taken my time and used better formulas.

I like this because it doesn't looks obviously Photoshopped, but it has to be.
I said "Inside everyone of us is a child that wants to stop and look at the fish".
The other quote I wanted to use was "Don't leave yourself behind". I think I like that one better.

Me just being emo. I just remember making it and I think it's well done.
Nothing really fancy, but not entirely boring...not entirely me.

I was really proud with this. Man did I hate school. No I am not entirely naked.

My self portrait. Lame.

I guess that does it.
There will be one more, final post tomorrow.
I hope you've enjoyed yet another long picture post
with weak attempts to convey what I feel.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-02-02T23:51:00

2004-02-03T04:51:30Z

I guess I want to start in saying, I don't know everything.
I don't use words like forever and I promise.
I'm not saying everything is perfect or that you don't know what you're doing.
One thing I do know, however, is how good I have it.
But it wasn't entirely luck. I've learned a thing or two.
There are so many of you I want to say this to.

This is the way I see it.
The World is a beach and Love is the Ocean.

You are taking the hand of the closest person to you and running into the water at full speed. From running to walking it gets harder and harder to move and breathe. By the time it comes to you, that this isn't what you thought, you are up to your ears in an angry sea....and there are waves. You're in so deep that all you can see of your "lover" is the now listless eyes you fell so hard for, holding the hand you thought would hold yours forever. Instead of drowning or working together, you let go. Do you care enough to help? No, who could care that much after a two weeks at sea? You act like you feel bad, maybe even bad enough to go back for them, the truth is you're glad to be on your way back. Or maybe you blame them for being the one to lead you so deep. Maybe you should understand it takes two.

Eventually we all get back to the shore. Some swim and swim, some catch a wave and then there are those that have drowned alone and their body is washed up miles down the coast. They are often resuscitated, but never fully recover. But it seems no amount of fatigue or water in the lungs can keep us from trying again and again.

Advice? Take your time and play in the wake. No amount of time could take away the sea.
You have to realize that you are looking for something that we all want, but few find.
True love is just a golden treasure on a sandy beach of broken shells and starfish that weren't good enough for the sea.

In so many words, I am drowning. It's up to you whether it is for you...or with you.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-25T23:51:00

2004-01-26T04:51:55Z

I'm going to photograph the world.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-21T18:00:00

2004-01-21T23:00:35Z

I would just like to point out that I did all this with just my camera.
And Mike is the best DDRer this side of the Mississippi.
I would also like to say, that this is probably my favorite song.
Bob Dylan has done more for music in four decades and six strings
than anyone could do in 200 lifetimes.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-21T02:28:00

2004-01-21T07:28:31Z

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

P.S. If the hosts don't cooperate there may be no more pictures. I make no promises.

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-19T05:24:00

2004-01-19T10:25:08Z

Six.
Pictures aren't working. So this post is sort of an interview.
Comment asking me any question(s) and I will answer you with truth.
"Will I make the 'cut'?" and other stupid questions will just be deleted.
If no one asks, I will probably just delete this post and pretend it never happened.
Thank you.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-15T02:37:00

2004-01-15T07:37:58Z

Date: January 6 to 8.
Time: 4:00 PM EST.
Stardate: 27509er.
Players: Andy, Tim, Figgs and Myself.
Location: Niagara Falls.
Temp: -15 (without windchill)
Wind Speed: 45 km/h
How fast is that in 'the states'? 2Fast
Seeing distance in blizzard: approx. 28cm
Max speed in blizzard: 15 m/h
Am I running out of facts about this trip? Yes

Basically, it was too cold to really do anything...seriously.
So, even more basically, we traveled five hours or so to be cold in a different country.
Before we crossed the border we ate the Red Garter Playhouse.
To give you an idea of how it was...
I believe as we walking by a table I heard Bill Gates complaining about the prices
and Donald Trump was spying for the manager so he could duck out without paying.

Come to the Red Garter Playhouse...bring money!

When we arrived at our hotel it was late. So we had to be quiet.

We ordered pizza. Tim clunked, yes clunked, out. Andy, Figgs and I lounged.

This is Sunny. If you don't know what to do in a sub-artic Niagara Falls he'll show you the closest strip club.

Since we are all too manly to sleep in the same bed as one another, I spent a sleepless night on the floor.
In the morning Andy and I made breakfast for everyone and we ventured out into the bitter, bitter cold.

Andy, Tim and Figgs.
I would like to point out that Figgs is, in reality, not that puffy.

To avoid frostbite, we went into a different store every 15 seconds.
We all bought scarfs, gloves and hats...which did nothing.

**Right about here we were standing around in the cold talking about how stupid we were for
standing around in the cold talking about how stupid we were. When, honest to god, we paused
and a tumbleweed blew past us. I hope you can understand how cool that is.**

Instead of waiting for Clint Eastwood, we went to the Skylon.

He was supposed to be leaning on it, but he is doing a piss poor job of it.

Inside was a bunch of stores and an arcade.
So we fished, played the keyboard and bowled.
Not just any bowling, Canadian bowling.

Here are some more things we did.

Sans girlfriends.

As you can almost clearly see, everything around the falls was frozen.
Any idiot could have told you that, but I'm not just any idiot now am I?
The mist freezes and stings like sleet. Then melts into water, like ice does,
and then refreezes on your jacket. Or in Figgs' case, hair.
I should probably clarify that Figgs was not wearing a hair jacket.
I meant that he was not wearing his newly bought hat.

That night, after losing Tim and then leaving Figgs in the room,
we went out for dinner and drinks. Although we had just bought food at a store.
And what started as two good friends having a few drinks, turned into...

Two good friends poking each other with plastic weapons.

I should point out that in the first picture Andy is, in fact, The Dude.

TJUI
Telling Jokes Under the Influence

The next morning after three breakfasts.
Andy, Figgs and I drove to The Falls.
Tim was still lost.

This is my favorite picture of the trip.
If you asked me why, I couldn't tell you.

I'm going to throw this picture in here beause I want to.

That's Mike aka Figgs.

The ride home was fun. I got shotgun.
We stopped at Anchor Bar, Tim's heaven.
They are the orginators of "Buffalo Wings"
and home to the ever famous Suicide Wings.

Then we stopped in Bradford, PA at the Zippo Co.
It was one of the coolest places I've ever been.
If you can, go. If you can't...go.

They had you find special Zippos. Andy found a white one.

Tim is not nearly as attractive as my girlfriend.
I would link you to the other Niagara post,
but it doesn't work at the moment.
I will, however, direct you to Tim's Deadjournal and Andy's Livejournal.

Twas a good and really fun trip. As usual.
Thanks Andy, Tim and Figgs go and taking me.
Thank you for reading.
Thank God I am done.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-14T01:51:00

2004-01-14T06:52:00Z

To the infinite reasons we have to smile.
Let us not miss one.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

P.S. Emily, Happy Birthday. You're the epitome.

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-11T20:55:00

2004-01-12T01:55:28Z

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-09T19:20:00

2004-01-10T00:20:51Z

Wayne, Tommy Chong and Frankie.

I made this post for two reasons.
To let you know that Wayne is alive and kickin'
and to tell you that I got a new camera.

The FujiFilm Finepix S7000....motherfucker.
It is roughly five...hundred times better then my old one. Seriously.
Oh and Dutch...it's 12 megapixels. Snap.
(Does everyone like how there's a pause in...every sentence?)

So, it is with no remorse that I retire the FujiFilm Finepix 1400z.
1.3 megapixles, shuts off constantly and has more cracks than a plumers convention.
The only camera worse than this one was Andy's old one, which didn't zoom.
A lot of you have asked what I used and here it is.

Look at that bitchin' tape detail.

And now, the last picture taken with the 1400...

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

(I realize that the "actual" last picture I took with that camera is the one of my new camera, but you know what I meant.)

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-09T01:35:00

2004-01-09T06:35:17Z

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2004-01-06T04:10:00

2004-01-06T09:10:33Z

This is the first of twelve last posts. The last of which will be on Feburary 13th.
Upon which I will add who I want to a new name and never update this again.
Sorry for those I've just added and those who have been so nice.
This is something I want to do. Something of a new beginning for me.
Something of a new leaf. Something of a long goodbye.

Yours,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2003-12-31T14:47:00

2003-12-31T19:47:39Z

Forever isn't a number. Forever isn't an amount of time.
Rather, it is a place in the back of your mind.
Where you think of the last two hours of work and waiting in line.
Things like the nights your girl is out drinking and bad songs.
If time flys when you're having fun, then forever is too long.
So, if you are going to love someone, don't do it forever, do it now.

skamaster09 @ 2003-12-17T11:58:00

2003-12-17T16:58:49Z

skamaster09 @ 2003-12-16T16:59:00

2003-12-16T21:59:18Z

skamaster09 @ 2003-12-14T23:21:00

2003-12-15T04:21:49Z

Viva la Snowball.

"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does.
Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up."
-James Baldwin

Your's,
Carlos A. Lamborn

If I may be so brash.

2003-12-10T14:11:05Z

I just wanted you to know that..
I've been thinking about you

I just wanted you to know that..
It's been, roughly, 6 months, 2 days and 7 hours since our first kiss.

And I just wanted you to know that..
If I could be anyone in the world, I would still be me in love with you.

It would be difficult to put us into words, but if I had to try, I would use words like:
Everything, I, Wanted, This, To, and Be.

I just wanted you to know...

Your's, Truely Your's,
Mr. Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2003-12-09T20:08:00

2003-12-10T01:10:24Z

I once read that people don't grow up, they just learn how to act in public.
I don't believe that, because some people really do grow up
...and some people really can't act.

Your's,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2003-12-04T13:46:00

2003-12-04T18:48:08Z

I am going completely insane.

skamaster09 @ 2003-12-02T16:02:00

2003-12-02T21:03:57Z

I guess this is just a note to tell you I'm all right.
The suns still rise and stars they fall.
Love is back in my vocabulary.
I remain a failure, but still egotistical.
Honestly, I hope you are all happy.
God knows it's hard to be.

Your's,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2003-11-25T13:41:00

2003-11-25T18:42:49Z

Happy Thanksgiving from McEntire 7 Front.

skamaster09 @ 2003-11-11T11:58:00

2003-11-11T16:59:21Z

Sometimes I wish there were a place behind the stars where we could all go to grow up faster.
Where there is no jealousy, malice and crying over stupid things.
We will do our work, treat like we truly want treated and trust, because there is no reason to be lied to.

Or maybe a place where, when you have feelings for someone, they will be equally matched in return.
You'll have the perfect moment to say the perfect words to the perfect somebody.
The place where love is certain and more easily defined.

Is there anyplace where we can be content with who we are and what we have?
No. There are only moments. Sooner or later we grow tired of what we have been blessed with.
And too often does that listlessness come sooner than later.

The truth is, we don't need a special place to live where these things are true.
It's all here, but none of us can be happy.
It's a curse. Life is a curse.

So we live in hopes and memories, because something about today depresses us.
What is there to look forward to if we've already given up on tomorrow?

If you wake up from all this, don't you want it to have been a dream instead of a nightmare?

We dream all night and wish all day, of the life that we would be happy with.
There is so much beauty we are missing.

Your's,
Carlos A. Lamborn

skamaster09 @ 2003-11-07T15:09:00

2003-11-07T20:10:33Z

skamaster09 @ 2003-11-07T03:03:00

2003-11-07T08:04:41Z

Since Lycos.uk won't let me upload. I thought I'd share the pictures that have been in my profile, in case you didn't catch them.

Lyrics of mine I never used.

Lyrics from Pedro the Lion, one of my favorite bands.

Quote Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Lyrics of MTX. Quite possibly the greatest band to have ever existed.

Something I said to Steve, I think.

Punchline, one of the greatest bands in the world.

Your's,
Carlos A. Lamborn